Friday, October 19, 2012

My Caesaren Sections Part 3

Levi was born at 40 weeks, at 5:49pm on Aug 1st via c/s. He was 9lbs and 21 inches. And I remember every bit of it! I got to hold him and nurse him right on the table in the OR. I felt normal. After everything, even though it was another c/s, I felt good about it.

Even he looks peaceful

Poor kid did not want to be swaddled

10 months after his birth, we find we are expecting another baby. Shoot! I wanted more time between births for the best chance at a vbac. Wait a minute, I'm trying this again? Yes. I feel like we were designed to birth babies. Modern medicine is great. I think it has its place. But babies are born no longer at home (at least not for most of them) but in hospitals. The same places that people go when they are sick or dying. Not sold on bringing new life into that kind of environment.

Last pregnancy I stressed. I worried about what I ate, how much I exercised, what position baby was in. Up until recently with this baby, I worried about who was going to deliver him. Now, its no longer something I worry about. I have stepped away from the stress, found a few amazingly supportive groups on Facebook, and am trying my hardest to put my faith in God.

After Levi was born, I tried to bleed out. Obviously I didn't, but the verse that kept coming to mind, as the nursed and OB pushed on my stomach (ouch!) was

Jeremiah 29:11

New International Version (NIV)
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

God loves me. He has plans for me. In those plans, he doesn't want to hurt me. Hmmm... Would a third c/s really be the end of the world? Probably not. But I also trust in my Lord. If that is what is needed, He will make it so. 

This is where I finally feel ok. I can look at the pictures from my first son's birth and no longer cry in sorrow. I can cry now because they are the birth of my FIRST child and something to be treasured. I have found the love and support that I have needed all along. 

Labor does not scare me. I am no stranger to pain. Baby #3 and I are going to rock this birth. Together, with the love of my husband, the support of my family, and the faith I have in my Lord to do right by me.

To get the whole story check out
Part 1 
Part 2 
Unassisted Birth 


  1. AND the love of your friends!! :)

    1. of course! I can not forget the friends that are supporting me through this journey